I feel so empty. Went to the football last night. I hate football. I'm trying to make an effort since NoSurprise, his family and friends, all seem to enjoy the game so much. It wasn't too bad, an actually interesting game between two very average teams.

Came home and had an awesome night and then morning of sensual and intense sex.

Then....

Then he has to go home to spend time with his mother for mother's day. Fair enough. Says he'll come back later and snuggle up with some videos, spend time together.

Then....

He changes his mind and decides he wants to read up on a new experiment he's trying this week. Ok, fine.

Then....

He changes his mind again and asks if I want to spend the day with him and his family. Heck sure, I'd love to...but he seems half hearted, so I ask is he sure?

No. He changes his mind again. So here I am, all alone, I hate being alone.

Rang my mother, only she's visiting her mother today, so I can't talk to her until tonight.

Once again, here I am, all alone, for no real reason. I feel so empty. Why couldn't he have just made up his mind instead of playing with me like that? I know he doesn't mean to, but it leaves me feeling so empty inside.

Oh and an old one-night-stand decided to call and ask for a, quote, 'fuck'. What the?! It's Mother's day, what the heck is with that?!

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